Scatter Brain Marlena

So, Texas has been fun I suppose. I genuinely miss Florida and the life I had established there. I miss my friends, my house, I miss it all.

Since we have been here in Texas (10 months now) I haven't really done too much; I think I am just going through adjusting to it all still honestly. I should be starting school again next month. For what? I don't know. I am still trying to decide what I want to be when I grow up... All I know is that i want to work with people, I want to help people. Whether it be social work, nursing, or psychology... I have no clue.

My eldest daughter is starting kindergarten in August and she is just thrilled... She is looking forward to seeing all her friends again and getting out of this house. She is getting so big and growing into her self. She is intelligent and funny.. Watching her grow these last 5 years has truly been a blessing. 

My baby girl is turning three next month and I just do not know where the time has gone, she is such a big personality and doesn't take shit from anyone. She is indeed her mother's daughter. She is silly and warm spirited. She definitely keeps me on my toes!

As usual this is a scatter-brain post, but I just wanted to write a little and try to get myself back into it. Writing was fun once upon a time... 

The Epiphany That Changed It All

I'm sitting here on my couch watching tv and thinking about life...

I am 22 years old and I have been overweight for the last 5 years of my life. I obviously didn't wake up one day and decide that I wanted to gain almost 100lbs.
 But, I did know what I was doing to myself. I did know that eating out wasn't good for me. I did know that drinking 5 or 6 sodas a day wasn't going to keep me in good health. I did know that when I was sad or happy or depressed I ate my feelings.
And for the last 5 years I have been listening the little voice in my head that tells me that I am ok even though I am overweight and unhealthy. I have been telling myself that "I could be worse"  "well, thomas still loves me and finds me attractive so, I'm ok" And now... I hear me. I hear my body. And it is time for a change!


In the last week I have made the choice to change my life; I have made this choice several times in the last 5 years... this time is different. This time I am stronger and I know that failing is not an option anymore... This time it is truly not about my weight; It is about my health.
In the last week I have cut out soda and smoking and I feel good. No more cravings and no more withdrawl symptoms. I am feeling happy again!

I am going to continue blogging throughout my Journey to a healthier and happier Marlena.. Let me know how you all are doing too! :)

New Working Laptop :)

Ok... so a few months ago my laptop died :(
Blue screen of death and everything.


Yesterday i finally commited and decided to get myself a new one and let the old one go. So here i am again! Back in business haha

I will start posting immediately.. cant wait to share my life with you all again!