Sunday, April 27, 2014

The Epiphany That Changed It All

I'm sitting here on my couch watching tv and thinking about life...

I am 22 years old and I have been overweight for the last 5 years of my life. I obviously didn't wake up one day and decide that I wanted to gain almost 100lbs.
 But, I did know what I was doing to myself. I did know that eating out wasn't good for me. I did know that drinking 5 or 6 sodas a day wasn't going to keep me in good health. I did know that when I was sad or happy or depressed I ate my feelings.
And for the last 5 years I have been listening the little voice in my head that tells me that I am ok even though I am overweight and unhealthy. I have been telling myself that "I could be worse"  "well, thomas still loves me and finds me attractive so, I'm ok" And now... I hear me. I hear my body. And it is time for a change!

In the last week I have made the choice to change my life; I have made this choice several times in the last 5 years... this time is different. This time I am stronger and I know that failing is not an option anymore... This time it is truly not about my weight; It is about my health.
In the last week I have cut out soda and smoking and I feel good. No more cravings and no more withdrawl symptoms. I am feeling happy again!

I am going to continue blogging throughout my Journey to a healthier and happier Marlena.. Let me know how you all are doing too! :)