To You My Dear

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.
-Judy Garland

As these days dwindle by, I am more and more convinced that you are all I could have wished for in a  Bestfriend and Husband. 

I can not fathom a day without you at my side. You make my days a little easier by just being here with me.. 

You are my sunshine on the darkest of days.. A day without you is like a day with no light.

I am sitting here trying to find the words to express my love and gratitude and nothing seems to do what i feel for you justice......

Suffice it to say that you are my everything.. You have given me two of the most wonderful gifts anyone could ever ask for. And for that I am eternally grateful.

I am thankful that through any hardships we faced you are always standing right at my side ready to face the world head on.

I am thankful that God sent me such an amazing man to live my life alongside.

You my dear are my hero.

I love you for always.

Unmotivated

So Im not going to lie.. For about a month or so, I have not done anything. No eating healthy no working out.. Nothing. I got sick and after I got better I never started back up.


Today is my first day back at this... I feel like I am dying hahahaha

I weighed myself again last monday and I was sitting at 223 lbs again.. Today I am 219. I am hoping to get down to about 180 by October. Then i can set 10 lb goals for every month or two.

Hopefully I can stay motivated this time. My husband is doing insanity so hopefully we can do this together!

My Silly Relationship

The most perfect way to describe my relationship with my husband lol he is the one person i can be silly and goofy with and not worry about him thinking i am crazy haha

Well at least i hope he doesnt think i am crazy lol  

He is the one person i know, that i have ever met that i feel allows me to be me.. the weird, talkative, psycho that i am

Boy do i love this man!

Take A Closer Look

I was 16 when i wrote this. Around the time I got pregnant with my Lore.





Lips painted with red, eyes lined with black, it's what they see.
Look a little closer. Look into her eyes; tell me what you see.
A young scared girl? Alone and sad.
If only someone would look a little closer, someone could save her.
But, no one really SEES her. Or her pain.
They look quickly and soon forger the face of that poor scared young girl.
If only they had noticed her. If only someone had looked a little closer and showed interest in the person she rally was.

Someone could have saved her.

My Old Poetry

Wrote this a long time ago- bad place.

As i walk through the halls filled with people I speak, I cry, I yell. No one hears my lonely bitter cries. They look, they stare, but they quickly move on. Not thinking twice about my pitiful lonely aching heart. Not aware of what is happneing, they dismiss me. My cries. My tears. I scream louder in desperate hopes of help. Still no one listens. The hear. They ignore. I yell until i lose my voice. I become silenced. Quiet. My pain now numb.


It really is sad to read things that I wrote during a certain period of my life... But it is nice to see how i have grown.

Decision Made

So I have finally decided what I want to do with my life.. Well kinda.
For the longest time I have struggled to find the one thing I am truly passionate about, the thing that I want to do for the rest of my life.
I bounced around all over the place.. I went from law to medicine to social work back to medicine (proof of how fickle i am) lol

I sat and thought about all of the things I have wanted to do and found what I am passionate about. Helping people. I just want to know that at the end of my life I have changed something or someone for the better. I want to know that I left my mark on the world. Thats what I want.

Took me a while but i have decided that I want to be a psychologist. I want to work with young adults. I want to make a difference!

I am so excited.. I know that I need to take this one step at a time but I just cant help but get ahead of myself lol

School is all I can think of.. I want to take my education to the highest level I can.

I start thinking about whether or not I am personally capable to go all the way and get a PhD. But.. I know I can, I have been given all of the tools and best possible mentors a girl could ask for.
I AM POWERFUL! I AM DETERMINED! I AM SMART!

Easy B-Fast Idea

Bacon, Egg, and Toast Cups

Prep Time 15 minutes

Total Time 35 minutes

Yield Makes 6

 

Ingredients

• 3 tablespoons unsalted butter, melted
• 8 slices white or whole-wheat sandwich bread
• 6 slices bacon
• 6 large eggs
• Coarse salt and ground pepper

Directions

1. Preheat oven to 375 degrees. Lightly butter 6 standard muffin cups. With a rolling pin, flatten bread slices slightly and, with a 4 1/4-inch cookie cutter, cut into 8 rounds. Cut each round in half, then press 2 halves into each muffin cup, overlapping slightly and making sure bread comes up to edge of cup. Use extra bread to patch any gaps. Brush bread with remaining butter.
2. In a large skillet, cook bacon over medium, until almost crisp, 4 minutes, flipping once. (It will continue to cook in the oven.) Lay 1 bacon slice in each bread cup and crack an egg over each. Season with salt and pepper. Bake until egg whites are just set, 20 to 25 minutes. Run a small knife around cups to loosen toasts. Serve immediately.

Cook's Note

Standard muffin pans come in 6- or 12-cup size; if baking 6 items in a 12-cup pan, leave empty space in between. Nonstick pans are nice but not essential. Beware of very thin pans, which often lead to burning. Place pans on a baking sheet to make them easier to get in and out of the oven.

Framed T.V.

An idea I thought was really cool.. Would be nice for our room. A great pop of color. Looks a bit vintage. It would even work for a bathroom!

College Bound Mommy!

Hey all!
I know I havent written in a while.. I have been pretty busy.
I finally enrolled for college and have decided Psychology is where my heart lies. I want to work with young adults in the mental health field. I am so excited! And i must say I am proud of myself.

One of my main goals is to make my daughters proud.
I want them to know that yes I did have them young but, I was able to live my life and get an education. I never want them to think that they were something that stopped me from doing great things.. Because if anything they have inspired me to be a better woman!

Just wanted to share a little of whats been going on and whats on my mind this beautiful Monday!