Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Feel Sexy Again? Hell Yes!

Hello my lovelies!

Just wanted to share some of what is going on with you all...

for the last 3 weeks or so i have been going to the gym everyday and working my butt off!
Very honestly i have been really upset because everytime i step on the scale i weigh the same or a little more than i had the days before. SO that was a really big demotivator of course.

The other day i tried on a pair of jeans that i bought in march.. they are a size 16. When i bought these jeans i swore that was the size i wore. Nope in March i was a size 22 :/ i couldnt get those things over my thighs/hips to save my life.

Well to my surprise they actually fit now! So i know i am making progress.

For the last week i have been between 215 and 212 and have not been able to drop past that 212. Today i did :) 210. I only have 10lbs left to get out of the 200's. I am beyond excited!

And i am proud of myself. I feel pretty again. I feel sexy! I feel good :)

I just want to say thank you to those of you that read and help keep me motivated and going. I appreciate you!
Let me know how your goals are coming along?

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

I Just Want To Eat!!

So i am sitting here browsing through Pinterest's "Food & Drink" section.. And all that is happening is.... Me fighting the urge to get up and go buy or make something i know i would regret later.

I just want a soda... and a bowl of pasta covered in cheese, with a slice of bread; smeared in butter. But no. I cant. I am already angry about my weight and i refuse to do what i usually do..


Ya know, i have been working out, lots of running and walking.. But, for some crazy reason instead of losing weight i started gaining weight! What the hell?! Here i am trying to change my ways by doing exercise and eating better and i am gaining weight?! Makes me want to quit more than ever.

I am sitting at 213 lbs today and i am miserable with that.. and i am even more miserable because starting yesterday i was ordered to stop running for 6 weeks to let my shin splints heal. So now i have to find some other way to try and lose weight... I am just so sick of this.

Yesterday i went to the Dr to figure out exactly what was going on with my shins.. they hurt like hell when i walk or touch them even, Anyway.. I am sitting there talking to my Dr  and he says "Other than athsma and Obesity do you have any other diseases?"


Oh, i just wanted to roll up into a ball and cry..

Well anywho... i just wanted to write a little for today and as always.. I hope you Dont mind my scatter brain writing too much ;)


Saturday, November 24, 2012

Black Friday

So, If some of you dont know... I work at Kohls. I hate it. But hey, its a job right?

Here is the place i get to gripe about my job to anyone that is willing to read it haha

Black Friday: I closed last night. My shift was scheduled from 4pm - 1230 am. (i clocked out at 105am) Not too bad.

Problem? I got to deal with the mess from the entire day of havoc.

First, we have a lot of new associates. And when i say new i mean this is their first week of working here. Some, had their first shift last night. What does that mean for me?
People that are not yet educated on how things work or how to do certain things.

All night all i heard was "oh, i cant put that stuff away.. i dont know where it goes." My response?

Well, you better start walking around with that stuff now so you can find it.

I hate doing other people's jobs because they are too lazy to do it themselves. Including certain managers that are employed there.

I am hopping all over the place here so bare with me....

I happened to be the most experienced person working the registers out of 5 of us that were scheduled.. so of course when something wasnt done correctly i got the tail end of it.

For a majority of the night all i heard was... so can we leave as soon as the store closes at 12?  hahahahah NO!

Stop complaining and get your ass moving!

can we leave at 1230? ............ If we finish what we need to get done yes. But at the rate everyone is moving you will be lucky to be leaving at 1am.

I was run over by one of these new people with a bakers rack i.e. a heavy ass metal cage with wheels full of clothes and other merchandise.
As soon as it happend i sat on the floor to asses my achellies and this new associate bends down grabs my foot (i hate having my feet touched) and says let me see it! I used to be a volunteer fire fighter!
All i could get out was "honey, i have been through a cna and emt course i think i can handle a little bit of skin getting peeled off of my foot. Now get out of my space."

Of course i felt bad immediately after i said it and looked at her face... But hey i had had a long night.

oh! and my manager just happened to forget to give me and two other assoviates our last 15 minute break even after i asked her.. her response?
You already got it. NO No no. I did not. Ugh.

I hate black friday. I dont understand the point. Grown ass people running around to buy things at a "sale" price.. Spending money they dont have on shit they dont need. Its ridiculous.

And I hate when things are expected of me and i am not given the tools to be successful...

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Falling off the Wagon

So, since last Thursday i have fallen off the wagon.. No jogging and no eating clean. Been drinking soda and eating out. I went jogging at 6am one day last week and it was too cold for me (about 40 degrees) I got a little sick and just stopped going.

 Today is my first day back. Back to no soda and jogging at 5 pm before work. I need to learn to stop giving up when i hit a rough patch.

Due to my lack of dedication I am back up to having to lose 15 lbs instead of 11 :(

I have 42 days to lose 35ish lbs... I dont think its gonna happen but hey! i am going to shoot for it anyway!

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Food Addiction

So, I have recently learned that I have a problem.... My problem is with food. I love food. I am addicted to food.

I either eat way too much or i starve myself to avoid food.
I need to find a middle ground when i eat. I just dont understand how to do that.

No matter what i eat right now all i see is a number, all i see is calories that i am taking in.

I need help!!


Monday, October 22, 2012

Christmas Crafts

Some cute/fun Christmas ideas     
Clear, glass ornaments decoupaged with vintage German papers, sprinkled with glass glitter and tied with "Noel" made on a printer.
 Melted snowman cookies
First Christmas footprints on an ornament

Friday, October 19, 2012

21 Germiest Places You're Not Cleaning But Should

Some really good info. on germs and where you should be looking a little closer!
People avoid touching the obviously dirty things — toilet bowls, garbage cans, anything in a public restroom. But for every well-known nasty, there are a host of under-the-radar threats we put in our mouths, roll around on all night, and regularly rub on our faces. In an effort to keep clean, happy, and healthy, here are 21 surprisingly dirty things and what to do about them.


It’s easy for bacteria and food particles to get trapped in the crevasses of sponges, creating ideal conditions for bacteria to breed. Moist, dark — what else could bacteria ask for?!
What to do: Try antibacterial sponges and dish soaps to limit the lesser of bacteria evils — but neither are very effective at controlling the spread of big name baddies like E. Coli and Salmonella. Be extra safe by disinfecting sponges at least once a week by soaking in a bleach solution for 5 minutes, or microwaving on high for two minutes. (The microwave method has even been shown to kill 99 percent of bacteria!)
Kitchen Buttons, Knobs, and Handles
Taking something from the fridge, grabbing spices from the cabinet, preheating the oven, zapping something in the microwave — a lot goes into cooking a meal, including any bacteria from that raw chicken or unwashed produce.
What to do: To minimize the risk, some experts recommend using a disinfectant on any frequently used kitchen surfaces several times a day, especially before and after preparing a meal. Keep it carefree by keeping antibacterial wipes right on the counter for easy access.
Drip Coffee Maker
Even though coffee itself has some antimicrobial properties, coffee makers still need to be cleaned. Most home coffee makers don’t get hot enough to kill anything growing in the wet, dark environment of the water reservoir or the machine’s internal piping.
What to do: Running a 50/50 mix of water and white vinegar through the machine once a month may help inhibit the growth of mold and some bacteria. Let half the mixture run through the machine, then switch it off for an hour before finishing the cycle. And don’t forget to deep-clean the carafe!
Cutting Boards
With all the ingredients flying around that kitchen, it’s hard to keep designated cutting boards for each type of food. (Fresh veggies tossed on a board right after a raw steak probably isn’t such a good idea). But this hotbed for cross-contamination is essential to keep clean. Scientists debate whether wood or plastic makes for a better board: Plastic boards seem safer and easier to clean (because they’re not porous), but once they’re scored from repeated slicing, it’s hard to clean the microscopic grooves. Wood sucks bacteria down into its core, but researchers disagree about whether bacteria ever resurface; one study noted that heavily used wooden boards were more problematic than new ones.
What to do: Keep plastic boards clean by regularly running through the dishwasher (or washing with near-boiling water if the dishwasher isn’t an option). Consider microwaving wooden ones to get the bad guys out. (But be careful — some folks have managed to catch their cutting boards on fire.) Let both boards air-dry completely before storing to minimize potential bacteria growth. But since the research is really mixed, just be sure to replace heavily nicked boards regularly.


Pillows aren’t just packed with feathers — turns out they can also be home to several types of allergy-inflaming fungi. (Ick.) And all those hours spent sweating, shedding skin, and drooling like a sheepdog also create ideal conditions for dust mites, another potential allergy trigger.
What to do: In addition to regularly laundering bedding (specific instructions below), anti-allergen covers can help protect pillows from outside germs getting in and keep the sneezy stuff (down, anyone?) inside.
Take all the reasons to be worried about pillows and add sweat to the tune of up to one liter per night.
What to do: Washing and drying everything on the highest heat available is a good policy, but regular bleaching is a good idea, too. (In fact, studies suggest a good hot wash and dose of bleach will not only kill bacteria on the cloth, but also cleans out the machine so germs aren’t continuously spread around.)


Laundry Bag
All the grime from sweaty workout gear, underwear, and bedding sits in that laundry bag, soiling the hamper itself.
What to do: Try using one bag for dirty clothes, and one for the clean stuff, and wash the dirty bag along with the clothes! For hard plastic hampers, use any hard surface disinfectant, but be wary of anything with the potential to discolor (i.e. bleach).
Makeup and Makeup Brushes
People shouldn’t get diseases from getting dolled up, but cosmetics have been known to do just that! Eye makeup seems to be the greatest cause for concern; one study found that within just three months of use, 40 percent of tested mascara tubes had some creepy crawlies growing in them.
What to do: A good rule of thumb is to replace eye makeup every season; toss lotions and liquid foundation every six months; and get fresh power-based products, lipstick, and nail polish every two years.
Contact Lenses
One study found that more than 80 percent of tested contact lens cases were contaminated with bacteria, regardless of the system used to clean (no-rub solution or hydrogen peroxide). (And some suggest inadequate cleaning instructions are to blame!)
What to do: Star by wiping out contact lens cases after each use and replace it every month (or at least clean by soaking in near-boiling water for a few minutes). If using a fancy hydrogen peroxide cleansing case, just allow fresh solution to sit in the case for 24 hours before using.
Studies have found that flushing the toilet can spew bathroom-related bacteria into the air. (Ick!) Needless to say, it’s a good idea to store that toothbrush far away from the potential contaminants (and close that lid before flushing!).
What to do: The ADA suggests making sure to rinse toothbrushes thoroughly after use, allow them to dry completely, and replace every three to four months. And while they don’t deem sanitizing necessary, they do discourage sharing toothbrushes. That said, for those who were recently sick (or are sickened by the thought of germs) rinsing in a milk bleach solution is am effective disinfectant, as is running toothbrushes through the dishwasher. And while it may seem that antibacterial mouth rinses (like Listerine) could be a good alternative to bleach, one study found that it was only about as effective as allowing the brush to air dry, although there are other brands (specifically Crest-Pro Health) which worked better.
We shower to get clean, so it’d be silly to get dirty drying off. But reusing damp bath towels could be doing just that! Drying down after the shower doesn’t just get rid of the excess water — it takes with it dead skin cells and bacteria, too (including the dreaded staph infection).
What to do: The risks are low if towels are changed out about once a week and are allowed to dry completely between uses. While antimicrobial towels do exist, their efficacy and necessity are debatable — they could help cut down on smells, but that seems to make it easier to forget about cleaning them.
Bath Mat
Bath mats sit there, soaked with shower water and pressed up against the floor, slowing evaporation and providing the dark, damp environment mold and bacteria love. Add to that the fact bathroom floors have been shown be one of the most contaminated parts of the bathroom (toilet bowl excluded, of course) and it’s obvious why we should put some brainpower towards that bath mat.
What to do: Launder mats once per week on the highest heat and with bleach (if possible — defer to the mat’s washing instructions, especially if it has rubber backing). And (clearly) keep separate from any bedding or clothes. Wooden mats may be an easier option, since surface disinfectants can replace regular laundering, but it’s important to remember to disinfect the floor to avoid re-infecting a clean mat.


Those little buds aren’t just at risk from what they pick up in the bottom of that gym bag — using them for just one hour has been shown to coat headphones with bacteria from the ear.
What to do: Using water with electronic accessories is tricky, but audiophiles can clean detachable rubber nubbins (technical term) by soaking them for 15 minutes in a vinegar and water solution and letting them sit for 10 more minutes in water before drying. For the un-detachable kind a gentle mixture of soap and water should be used on the plastic exterior, and a clean toothbrush can remove any lint from the grill.
Anyone who drives — or just plans on returning home at the end of the day — probably has a set in their pocket, but who thinks about keeping keys clean?
What to do: The fact that many keys are made of brass, a copper alloy, offers some protection because it’s naturally antibacterial. But occasionally scrubbing keys with plain ol’ soap or using a disinfectant probably won’t hurt, and at the very least shining them up offers some aesthetic benefits.
A study of office workers found that women’s purses were one of top three dirtiest things they touched throughout the day. In fact, one (very small) study found E. Coli on 25 percent of purses tested (out of a 50 purse sample).
What to do: Common sense (don’t rest it on the bathroom floor) and regular cleaning are enough to minimize risk. Wipe leather purses with a disinfectant wipe every few days, and put washable ones through the laundry (or send to the dry cleaner) as often as once per week.
Studies have repeatedly cited mobile phones as risk factors for infection, and we largely have our own unwashed hands to blame. (One study found fecal bacteria on 1 in 6 phones!)
What to do: The clean up is simple: Power down the device once per week (more during cold and flu season) and wipe with a disinfectant cloth.
Gym Bag
If it’s regularly being packed with sweaty shirts that have been exposed to all manner of germs from the gym, why don’t we wash it as often as the clothes themselves? And this may not just be a smelly misstep — some researchers believe dirty gym bags could be responsible for spreading infections.
What to do: Consider storing dirty clothes in a separate mesh pouches or a sealable plastic bag (just make sure not to forget and let it fester) for transporting. Empty and air out bag between uses to limit bacteria growth. But the bag itself is likely getting left on locker room floors, which are known to harbor infectious microbes, so give it a once-over with disinfectant wipes and send through the wash on the hottest setting once per week.
Studies have found shoes can track significant amounts of bacteria indoors, infecting clean floors. Some research has found shoes to more specifically transport E. coli and bacteria that can cause pneumonia. And it’s no surprise — sidewalks certainty aren’t regularly disinfected!
What to do: There’s no perfect solution, but an easy fix one study suggests instituting a no-shoes policy inside the house.
Water Bottle
Staying hydrated and healthy seem to go hand in hand, but be wary — coliform bacteria (which E. coli falls under!) can coat the inside of reusable plastic bottles if they’re not cleaned carefully. In fact one study of students’ water bottles found they were so dirty that, had the water come from the tap, the government would have classified it as unfit to drink!
What to do: Choose a wide-mouthed bottle for easier cleaning and drying, and opt for a hard material that won’t get scratched during vigorous cleaning (like stainless steel). In addition to regular washing, soak in a bleach solution for two minutes once per week (and rinse and dry completely).
Yoga Mats
The idea of a communal mat is inherently gross. Who wants to roll around in somebody else’s sweat for an hour? Wrestlers have long dealt with outbreaks of ringworm, staph, and even herpes from similarly sweaty wrestling mats, and now some doctors are suggesting the new surge in cases of athlete’s foot and plantar warts is tied to the growing popularity of yoga.
What to do: Bringing a mat to hot yoga or Bikram may be even more important because of all the nasty fungi and bacteria sweat expels from pores, but bringing a personal mat isn’t much better if it isn’t cared for properly (or if loaned to friends). To keep it clean, pick a side that will always face up and attempt invest in a yoga towel to keep sweat off the mat itself. And a routine Clorox wipe swipe isn’t a bad idea, either. After every use make sure to hang mats up so both sides can dry completely, and periodically scrub mats with a tiny bit of dish soap and water.

Living Room

TV Remote
A hospital hygiene study found that the remote controls were three times dirtier than anything else in the room, while another study found that nearly half of the remotes tested positive for antibiotic-resistant staph.
What to do: Wipe down remote controls with any hard surface disinfectant or a handy dandy antibacterial wipe regularly — and especially if it’s been used by a sick person recently!

Get In Gear! 20+ LBS In 6 Weeks?

So i have til the end of November-ish to lose approx. 20 lbs. EEEEK!

Reason? I need to look amazing for my husband's ALS graduation! lol
I am hoping that will help me a little with my self conciousness too. So i now really need to buckle down and start eating better and working out again. I think at the very least walking/jogging an hour a day will help right?

Need some help and some tips for things that have worked for you!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Hiatus Over

So, I have been MIA for a while now.. I apologize. I got a little busy. Started working again and for the first time in 2 months finally have some time off to relax spend time with my family and write.

Whats new? Lets see..
My husband made his next rank! So excited for that.
My baby girl turned 1.
and i have lost a few more pounds.

All in all i am in a good place right now and thrilled about what is still to come.

I hope i have time to continue writing for those of you that do genuinely read my blog and those of you that may begin to one day ;)

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Kicking My Addictions

So my lovely readers... Today is day 4.5 of no smoking or drinking any soda.

At first, i was not very happy. But as of today i genuinely feel good and accomplished.

If any of you know me personally you know that i LOVE drinking coke. I am addicted to caffeine and have pretty much sworn that it is impossible for me to quit drinking it.

You also know that i smoke when bored.... which happens to be most of my day lol and that i have tried to quit several times now.

Well, this time i am serious. I dont feel so weak and i need to get a grasp on a healthier me. I have replaced my 4-5 cans of coke with water or iced tea and have just fought off my urges to go buy cigarrettes on my own (does help when you are broke lol)

I am hoping that these little changes will help me in the long term goal to be healthier overall.. I want to be a good role model for my girls. I want them to live healthy lives that dont revolve around addictions that are bad for you mentally and physically. And i would most like to be more confident that i will be here for them always.. Cutting out cigarrettes is a big help with that. At least it gives me a little peace of mind in knowing that i am not making my own self sick.

Hurricane Isaac.. EEEEK!

So beautiful and scary at the same time.
Ok.. so i dont know how many of you are actually aware but i am a California girl, We dont do hurricanes. We do earthquakes haha so this little doozy we have going on is giving me a dang panic attack.

I am not sure if it is serious or not, i keep getting mixed reviews from all of the locals.
Today at work someone actually told one of our associates that she needed to be careful because people will start to loot and rape after the hurricane lol -way to scare her.

I have gotten everything ready for all situations.. be it evacuation or riding it out. It is the waiting to see what is going to happen that is killing me.
I dont like the waitning game.
I like plans and knowing exactly what the plan of action is.
I feel so out of mother nature's loop right now tee hee.

THese past few days have been crazy... Friday the base ran out of gasoline. And not just the 87 either.... They ran out of everything! Good luck trying to find any store in the area that actually has water in stock. And if you do they are charging an arm and a leg for it. Everywhere is packed with people trying to get some last minute essentials so if you are going to just buy groceries or a pack of batteries good luck to you lol

 If any of you need some help with anything feel free to ask and i will do my absolute best to help whoever or wherever i can..

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Good Stuff is Happening

Hey all!
Well i have lots to share, I have had an eventful month so far and its only 9 days in haha.

First let me share that my husband has made SSgt this year! I am so proud of him!
Second, I got my job back at Kohl's. I am very excited about that.
Third, and most importantly to me... i finally did register for school. And decided to go full time.

I am going to be so busy.. But i think itll be worth it. Helping my husband out a little with the financial part of everything. And helping advance myself into the field of work i want to be in.

I am so excited with everything that is going on! And to top it all off my momma will be here this Sunday to visit for a couple weeks. I havent seen her in about two years.. I am so overjoyed.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Poetry of Mine

I am afraid to speak the words that linger beneath my tongue..
Words that when let out into the night sky can not be be put back into their once safe place.

Am I ready to let them free?
To let myself be free?
Not yet.
I am not ready to part with my sanity.

Those words so innocent and nieve...
They dont know what they are getting themselves in to.
But I do!
I know what they can do; I know the power that they hold.
I know the power that I hold.

So for now..
I will keep them. I will keep them safe with me.

I have not written in a long time.. well, not poetry. Not anything that may elicit genuine emotion. I hold my writing very dear to me.. and would like to know what you guys think. So feel free to share opinions about it! Thanks for reading :)

A New Favorite Of Mine

Read this... I stole it from another blog.. at the bottom i have shared the link to her blog. Its a good read! I recommend it to everyone. Her writing is so full of emotion and honesty. Something i believe we all need to read so that we can see or understand that we arent the only ones who deal with certain issues.

Let me know what you all think? Thanks!



On depression.

July 9th, 2012
Off and on for the past five years or so, I’ve gone to therapy. Often brief stints of me feeling low, sometimes lower than low, and not quite knowing what else could help besides a cake with one fork and an empty room. And so, I find a psychologist in my area and I spend a few months articulating the lowliness I’ve felt all my life, the one that hasn’t gone away even in times of thinness and health, success and wealth. Inevitably I decide that we’ve done all we can do, we say our goodbyes- my therapist and I- and we part ways. Lots of times I move states or countries and begin to feel a momentary betterment. Some geographic distraction.
The thing is, it has never quite gotten better entirely. I haven’t shaken that feeling of anxiousness, sadness, loneliness, utter boredom despite plenty to do. Not in twenty seven years.
The first time I called my mom to tell her of my shade of blue, I was 20 and standing out front of my college dorm.
“I just feel down. Everyday. Just…so lonely” I told her, standing no more than 15 feet from a group of my friends. Irony at play.
The heaviness, that foggy feeling felt familiar. It felt as though the sadness, the depression I was discovering- that it had been with me forever; I just hadn’t been able to articulate it until now.
I lived a full year in an outwardly happy, inwardly unsettled sort of way. I wasn’t sure what could be the matter. Other than an alcohol-soaked girlhood, a dad who’d died, and morbid obesity, I just wasn’t able to pinpoint the root of it. So I met with my first therapist. I can’t say it helped, but it felt proactive, and maybe that was enough to feel like I was getting somewhere.
Over the next seven years, two and a half of which you’ve known me here, I’ve felt a wavy up and down. It’s always progression and regression, peace and panic, a forever tingling of ants in my pants. If I were to try to describe my depression, I’d echo what Sarah Silverman wrote in her book, “The Bedwetter.” She described it as a feeling of homesickness when you’re already home. This description is the only sentence I’ve read in all seven thousand self help books I’ve bought that actually makes me sigh, long and relieved, like someone gets it.
And what I’d add to this feeling of homesickness, is that so much of what I feel is contradictory. I feel deeply lonely, even with friends. I feel like I’m losing, even if I might have won. I feel like I’m struggling, drowning, even though I’ve got nothing nagging at me, nothing weighing me down. I feel tired, chronically, despite any stretch of sleep. I feel utterly, utterly bored but without enough ambition to seek activity. Hopeless. Like everyday is a struggle to get through, even the great ones. As though I am all alone and always will be, even if just in my head.
And really, it feels as insane as it sounds.
My life,
on paper,
is beautiful.
Maybe the fact that it’s so beautiful and I can’t quite feel its beauty is what makes me even sadder. There’s guilt in not being able to just wrap my arms around everything and absorb what happiness it could give me.
The thing is, I get through the days. I get through them very, very well. I wake up, I go about living in the way I’d want to live if I felt better. I try to be the person I’d want to be, were I more naturally inclined to being her. Mostly because- what else is there to do? The world, the show, they just go on.
It’s not that I’m not letting myself be who I truly am, it’s that I’m fighting against all urges to tuck under my covers forever. What’s interesting, I imagine, is that I seem happy. I seem light. And there are moments, lots of them, where I am happy and light. It’s just the other times, most times, when I’m working toward contentment of any kind.
My belief is that some of us have a happiness balance gone wonky. Our serotonin levels, our dopamine levels- whatever it may be- they’re just not quite up to par. And maybe medication restores some of the natural balance. Maybe it sets us at the same starting line as the rest of the world’s race runners, rather than twenty feet back. It doesn’t make us happier, not better, all by itself. But it lets us shake off a bit of that hopelessness, so that at least momentarily, we see that life won’t always feel like trudging through quicksand.
This week I’m starting to see a new therapist. To talk about life and anxiety and to ask her why, despite two book deals, traveling the world, and all the charming parts of my life, I’m still blue.
I believe in therapy. I believe in the experience of articulating feeling and thought. I believe in hearing myself say those things- crazy and non-crazy- and having someone else hear them, interpret them, too. It’s freeing. It’s validating.
I’m not sure this post has a purpose other than doing what I so love to do: letting my hair down, showing you that even if it seems as though my life is all manner of lovely, it isn’t always. So if you’re struggling, with anything really, I guess I want you to know that I struggle too. And that it’s all okay.
*Though this post is about depression, it isn’t meant to be sad. I don’t want anyone to worry about my emotional state or to think I’m floundering. While looking at my calendar this week, I saw the therapy appointment and I realized, as I often do when I toss out one of these types of posts, that this is the kind of honesty I like to share. Because I like empathy. And I really like thinking that we’re all in it together. this is the link to this blog...

Monday, July 23, 2012

Sweet and Sour Chicken

Looks pretty simple! I think i am going to try it out!
Sweet and Sour Chicken

Chicken Breading:3-5 chicken breast
salt and pepper
1 cup cornstarch
2 eggs, beaten
1/3 cup canola oil

Rinse chicken, trim off fat or extras and then cut into 1 inch cubes. season with salt and pepper. Dip chicken into cornstarch and coat all the way and then into eggs. Heat oil in large skillet. Cook chicken until browned. Place in baking dish. 3 chicken breasts can be in a 9x9 but 5 chicken breasts fits better in a 9x13.

Sauce:3/4 cups sugar
4 Tablespoons ketchup
1/2 cup white distilled vinegar
1 Tablespoon soy sauce
1 teaspoon garlic salt

Whisk until smooth. Then pour evenly over chicken. Turn chicken so the sauce gets on both sides and then put in the oven at 350 degrees for 15 minutes. turn chicken and then cook for 15 more minutes.

Depression.. It Happens.

Today is one of those days.. I feel beat.

I woke up and feel disgusting. I stopped eating healthy, i stopped exercising, i stopped writing.. I stopped doing everything.
I bought some pants and got them today in the mail. They didnt fit right. They were a size 18. wtf?!

I feel so disgusting and down about myself.. And when i have these miserable days its like everything that i have ever dealt with or have yet to actually deal with piles in my head. It makes me so angry. I feel so lonely today.

I need to start back on making myself happy. I need to stop making excuses for myself..

I need help with that :(

Im afraid it may be time to go back to do some therapy.. I just wish i could take a few days to be alone and gather myself.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

ME Time

Bahaha there are way too many days when i feel like this... Having kids is wonderful. But, dont forget that you need some alone time every once in a while to keep your sanity haha

Even if it means putting kid(s) down for a nap and sitting in the tub to soak and relax. Or sit and read a book.

Go out to luch with a friend so you can have a little time to have some "grown up" conversations..

Take a fun dance class..

And dont forget to make sure you are making some time for your relationship and your significant other.

And dont feel guilty for feeling like you need to get away from your kids.. Its normal. Does not in anyway shape or form make you a bad parent. Like I said, Being a parent is magnificent and quite fulfilling... But, some days we all just need a little break.

At least i know i do!

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Crescent Pepperoni Roll-Ups

Crescent Pepperoni Roll-Ups
Prep time: 5 mins
Cook time: 15 mins
Total time: 20 mins
Serves: 8
  • 1 can refrigerated crescent rolls
  • 40 slices pepperoni
  • 4 pieces of mozzarella string cheese, cut in half
  • pizza sauce
  1. Preheat oven to 375
  2. Unroll crescent rolls and separate into 8 triangles. Place 5 slices of pepperoni on each crescent roll. Top pepperoni with string cheese half and roll up. Place rolls on baking sheet and bake for 12-15 minutes, or until golden brown.

Fit and Fabulous My new page on FB

So I created a new page on FB for anyone that wants to add it it is Fit And Fabulous  Go like it and start being a part of the conversations :)

Friday, July 6, 2012

Good Housewives Guide

So, I found this article on what a "good housewife" is.. this article is my favorite that I have found. Its do-able. I think it is a very good starting point.
Let me know what you all think? Or any other good points that you guys think should be added.

How to be a Good Housewife

A housewife is a married woman who is not employed outside the home. Most often, the husband works during the day and earns income to support the family, while the wife takes on most of the non-financial responsibilities, such as maintaining the home and, if applicable, caring for the kids. It is up to the couple whether this arrangement works for them. Sometimes it's a temporary situation, such as if children are too young to go to school and the cost of daycare is greater than the woman's salary. For other couples, it may represent a commitment to traditional values. Whatever the reason, if you have chosen to be a housewife, here are some suggestions to help you flourish in this role.

Discuss expectations with your partner. Discuss realistic expectations, and how to meet them as best as you can. The definition of a good housewife depends on which house you live in. It is also very culture-dependent (see below). Do not presume that you have the same expectations because you may find out the hard way (through arguments) that you don't. Sit down and talk it over. What are the things he is hoping you will keep up with in the home? What are his responsibilities in the home? If you are primarily responsible for keeping the house clean, he may take responsibility for cleaning up after himself: putting his dirty laundry in the hamper, placing things where they belong after he has finished using them, emptying the trash near his desk, putting his dishes in the dishwasher, etc. If you are also caring for young children during the day, you may be surprised by how difficult it is to also keep up with household tasks. Your husband may need to help significantly with the cooking and cleaning, if possible.

Maintain a great appearance. It is all too easy to stop paying attention to your appearance when you have a husband, but maintaining attraction is a key element of a long-term relationship. While it was important to keep a good appearance during dating/courtship, it is even more important in a married relationship, or any committed relationship. Try to spend some time each day making yourself look pretty, wearing clothes that delight him. If your husband oftentimes tells you he likes when you wear a certain garment or outfit, by all means, take the hint. Good grooming and hygiene are vital, so keep yourself neat and feminine by having a pretty hair cut, nice nails and smooth legs/underarms.

Learn to cook. Plan ahead, with the aim to have a delicious meal on the table when he gets home from work. It is often said that the way to a man's heart is through his stomach, and it is absolutely true! Microwave meals are not suitable cuisine, so find a recipe book you like and start experimenting. Having a great meal ready is a good way to let him know that you have been thinking about him and are concerned about his needs. A good meal can be an expression of love and a warm welcome for your partner when he gets home.


Be mindful and considerate of your spouse's needs. Lots of men need space when they come home from a hard day at work, so welcome him home with a big smile and allow him to relax and unwind. Have his favourite meal and drink ready, and let him relax after a tough day of work. Be available to spend time with him and comfort him, but if he wants to spend time alone or with his friends and not you, take a step back and let him have his way.

Listen to him. A good wife listens to what her spouse has to say without interrupting. Show empathy and learn how to have great conversations. The key idea is that to be a good conversationalist, you should strive to listen more and talk less, by engaging the other person to talk more about his interests. That is the mark of humility, respect, selflessness, and generosity.

Tidy up the house and make your home a clean and pleasant place to live in.

Improve your skills in the bedroom. It never hurts, and will only help to learn more about the sexual side of marriage. There are lots of books and websites that can help you improve your sexual techniques.

Find a balance in arguments, but avoid them if possible. Nagging never works, and will only serve to irritate your spouse. Not speaking your mind is just as bad. Husbands are not tyrannic creatures: if you find a balance in arguments, and take turns to speak, things will surely improve.

Love your spouse for who he is. Don't criticize him in an unconstructive, cruel, or nagging way. Whatever your image of the 'ideal' man may be, everyone is unique in his own ways, so try to respect that. Before you try to improve others, try to improve yourself first. If you find things disagreeable about him, let him know in a mature, sensible and loving way: chances are that he will agree on some things and/or explain others, plus it will build trust between both of you and save unnecessary conflicts.

Let him take control of certain situations, more so if they are extra personal situations like choosing his hobby, his meals, his clothes, etc. When you are home a lot, it can be easy to want to take control of everything your husband does in the home, but this may not be your husband's preference. It's all right if you want to give him your input in a polite way, more so if he asked you. Otherwise, let him have his space, just as you'd want yours. He's a separate human being from you; always remember that.

Cultural considerations


  • In Mexico, the wife is the core of the familial unit. Matriarchal families are very common and strong. Housewives are seen as benevolent, intelligent, wise, and almost magical creatures, since they are thought to have answers, remedies and solutions to almost every problem in the family's daily life, from a small cut to a heartbreak.
  • Being a strongly Catholic country, more so in rural places, Mexico is a country where women are usually urged to take on the roles of housewives and mothers as the Bible says, and have to know certain basics: how to cook, sew (and sometimes even embroider), to cure minor wounds (some even know minor 'first aid' maneuvers), how to keep a house clean and tidy, and even some book-keeping. Mostly in rural areas, if a woman does not know these things she could be very much frowned upon even by her family.
  • With the economy increasingly in crisis, Mexican wives have started getting a job, too, and still are housewives, just not homestead ones. Also, men have taken to helping their wives more and more, be it with children or the cooking or the tidying.

Feminist critique

  • Many feminists, such as Betty Friedan, have criticized the marginalization of women as housewives. Feminists generally suggest that 'housework' should be an appropriate role for a parent of either sex, believing that gender roles do not have any basis other than social conditioning. They also maintain that women can become socially isolated by being tied to their home. Some feminists would argue that the goal of feminism is not to close off any options for women, but to create opportunities for women to pursue careers in traditionally male occupations, as well as providing males an option to pursue roles that so far have been perceived as "strictly female". Indeed, the role of the stay-at-home dad or househusband has become more socially recognized as an available option in modern Western cultures.
  • Some feminists also point out that the monetary contribution of housewives' work to society is ignored in standard formulations of economic output, such as GDP or employment figures. Housewives work many unrecorded hours a week, while depending on their partner's employment to provide health insurance and household income. The State or individuals would have to assume staggering costs such as childcare in the absence of unpaid housewives.

Biblical considerations

  • The Bible has a lot to say about how to be a good housewife. Much of it is in Proverbs and the Song of Songs. For example, Proverbs xxxi. 10-31:

"Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies.
The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil.
She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life.
She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands.
She is like the merchants' ships; she bringeth her food from afar.
She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens.
She considereth a field, and buyeth it: with the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard.
She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengtheneth her arms. She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night.
She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff.
She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy.
She is not afraid of the snow for her household: for all her household are clothed with scarlet.
She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple.
Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land.
She maketh fine linen, and selleth it; and delivereth girdles unto the merchant.
Strength and honour are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come.
She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of kindness.
She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness.
Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her.
Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou excellest them all.
Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the LORD, she shall be praised.
Give her of the fruit of her hands; and let her own works praise her in the gates."

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Beginner/Intermediate Circuit Training

Circuit Training Workout

Circuit training is a great way to combine cardio and strength if you're short on time. This workout has two circuits, each with six strength/cardio exercises that are completed one right after the other, with little or no rest in between. Do each exercise for the specified amount of time (or as long as you can safely do so) and then move on to the next exercise. Once you complete all exercises, that is considered one circuit. Make sure you warm up with 5-10 minutes of light cardio and cool down with a stretch. Times are suggestion only--please modify according to your fitness level and perceived exertion.

  • Beginners: Complete Circuit I once
  • Intermediates: Complete both circuits once (or more)
  • Advanced: Complete both circuits 3 or more times

Circuit I

SquatsPlace an exercise ball behind the back and against the wall with feet hip-width apart, abs in and torso straight. Bend your knees and lower down until knees are at 90 degrees (don't go down as low if you have knee problems). Repeat for 30-60 seconds and hold weights for added intensity.
Jumping Rope (with or without a rope)
30 seconds to 1 minute
Jump with both feet together, jumping only an an inch or so off the floor.
Stand in split stance, right foot in front. Bend the knees and lower body into lunge position, keeping the right knee behind the toe, torso upright and abs in. 30 seconds, then switch legs for 30 seconds and hold weights for added intensity.
Jog or WalkUp to 5 minutes Either outside or inside, walk or jog for 1-2 minutes at a brisk pace. Increase speed and work as hard as you can for 2 minutes. Recover for 1 minute.
Push Ups - On Knees or Toes
30 seconds to 1 minute
Squats with Front Kick
Stand with feet together. Bring the right knee up and extend the leg in a front kick (don't lock the knee!). Lower down into a low squat (knees behind toes) and then kick with the left leg. Repeat (right kick, squat, left kick) for 1-3 minutes.

Circuit II

Squat/Lateral Raise
Stand with feet hip-width apart, abs in and torso straight. Slowly bend knees into a squat, keeping knees behind toes. At the same time, raise arms up to shoulder level. Lower arms and stand up. Repeat for 30-60 seconds.
Squat/Lateral Raise
Side-to-Side jump 20-30 seconds Place a pillow, phone book or step on the floor and stand to one side. Jump from side to side over the object, landing with knees bent and abs in.
Plank with Leg Extension
In plank position on the ball as shown or on the floor, slowly lift one leg while keeping hips and shoulders square, abs in. Switch legs, alternating for 20-60 seconds. Modify by staying on the knees.
Jumping Rope (with or without a rope)
30 seconds to 1 minute
Jump on one foot for half the time and switch legs for the remainder, jumping only an an inch or so off the floor.
Lunge with Biceps Curls
In split stance, slowly lower into lunge (front and back legs at 90 degrees), and curl forearms towards shoulders. 20-30 seconds on each leg.
Back Extensions
Lie face down on a ball (shown) or floor with the legs extended and hands behind the head or under the chin. Roll down over the ball and then squeeze the lower back to lift the chest off the ball in a straight line. Lower and repeat for 30-60 seconds.

Fat Burning Strength and Cardio Circuit

Fat Burning Strength and Cardio Circuit

This intermediate/advanced fat burning workout takes you through a variety of cardio and strength training exercises to maximize your calorie burn. Each circuit includes 3-4 exercises for the hips, glutes, thighs, abs and upper body followed by 3 minutes of high intensity cardio. Go through each circuit once, for a shorter workout, or twice for a longer, more intense workout.

  • Precautions
  • Get a doctor's clearance if you have any medical conditions or injuries.
  • If you're a beginner or haven't been exercising consistently for at least 2-3 months, start with this Beginner/Intermediate Circuit

  • Equipment NeededVarious weighted dumbbells, a barbell (you can use dumbbells as a substitute) resistance band, step or bench, exercise ball and a mat.
How To
  • Begin with a 5- to 10-minute warm-up of light cardio (walking in place, etc.)
  • Perform each circuit, one exercise after the other for 1-2 circuits, resting when you need to.
  • Modify according to your fitness level, but try to use challenging weights when you can.
  • Sip water throughout the workout. If you get tired, walk in place (don't stop moving)
  • Monitor your intensity and make sure you stay between about Level 4-8.

Circuit 1

Step Ups
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Stand behind a step or bench wrap a resistance band underneath. Place the right foot on the step, transfer the weight to the heel and push up, keeping tension on the band. Slowly step back down and repeat for 12-16 reps. Switch sides.
Split Squats

Hold a challenging weight and stand about 3 or so feet in front of a step or platform and take the left leg back, resting it on the step. Bend both knees and lower into a lunge, keeping the front knee behind the toe. Push through the heel to stand up and repeat for 12-16 reps. Switch sides.
Plank with Leg Lift
Get into a pushup position with feet/shins resting on the ball, hands under shoulders and abs contracted. Keeping the core tight, lift the right leg off the ball a few inches, hold for a few seconds and lower. Repeat on the left leg, alternating for 8-16 reps on each side.
3-Minute High Intensity CardioUsing the machine or activity of your choice, use the first minute to warm up and then work as hard as you can for 2 minutes.  
Repeat the above circuit.

Circuit 2

Pushups on the Ball

Get into pushup position with the ball under the shins or toes (harder). Keep the abs in and back straight as you bend the elbows and lower into a pushup. Squeeze the chest to push back up and repeat for 12-16 reps.
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Holding weights just over the shoulders, lower into a squat keeping the knees behind the toes. Push through the heels to stand back up while pushing the weights over the head. Repeat for 12-16 reps.
Ball Crunches

Position the ball under the mid back and place the hands behind the head or across the chest. Squeeze the abs and lift the shoulder blades off the ball into a crunch. Lower and repeat for 12-16 reps.
3-Minute High Intensity CardioUsing the machine or activity of your choice, use the first minute to warm up and then work as hard as you can for 2 minutes.
Alternatives: 3 minutes of one exercise shown in this
Advanced Cardio Blast Workout or this Low Impact Cardio Blast.
Repeat the above circuit.

Circuit 3

Bent Knee Deadlifts

Place heavy weights on the floor in front of you. Squat down, keeping the abs in and the knees behind the toes and pick up the weights as you stand up. Squat back down to put the weights back on the floor and stand up. Repeat for 12-16 reps. Take the feet wide if this is too challenging and make sure you use your legs and not your back.
Barbell Rows
Hold a heavy barbell or dumbbells and tip forward to about 45 degrees, abs in and back straight. Bend the elbows and pull the weight in towards the bellybutton, squeezing the back. Lower and repeat for 12-16 reps.
Ball Pikes

Get into a pushup position with the ball under the shins. Engage the abs and lift the hips towards the ceiling, keeping the legs straight and ending in a pike position. iReturn to start and repeat for 10 reps
3-Minute High Intensity CardioUsing the machine or activity of your choice, use the first minute to warm up and then work as hard as you can for 2 minutes.  
Repeat the above circuit.

Circuit 4

Incline Bicep Curls

Sit on a ball and roll forward until you're at an incline. Curl the weights up towards the shoulders and lower, repeating for 12-16 reps.
Triceps Dips

Sit on a chair or bench with hands next to the hips. Lift up and take the hips forward, just in front of the bench. Bend the elbows and lower down until elbows are about 90 degrees. Squeeze the triceps to push back up and repeat for 12-16 reps.
Knee Tucks

Get into a pushup position with the ball under the shins. Engage the abs and roll the ball in, bending the knees towards the chest as you squeeze the abs. Return to start and repeat for 10-16 reps.
3-Minute High Intensity CardioUsing the machine or activity of your choice, use the first minute to warm up and then work as hard as you can for 2 minutes.  
Repeat the above circuit.