Wednesday, December 5, 2012

I Just Want To Eat!!

So i am sitting here browsing through Pinterest's "Food & Drink" section.. And all that is happening is.... Me fighting the urge to get up and go buy or make something i know i would regret later.

I just want a soda... and a bowl of pasta covered in cheese, with a slice of bread; smeared in butter. But no. I cant. I am already angry about my weight and i refuse to do what i usually do..


Ya know, i have been working out, lots of running and walking.. But, for some crazy reason instead of losing weight i started gaining weight! What the hell?! Here i am trying to change my ways by doing exercise and eating better and i am gaining weight?! Makes me want to quit more than ever.

I am sitting at 213 lbs today and i am miserable with that.. and i am even more miserable because starting yesterday i was ordered to stop running for 6 weeks to let my shin splints heal. So now i have to find some other way to try and lose weight... I am just so sick of this.

Yesterday i went to the Dr to figure out exactly what was going on with my shins.. they hurt like hell when i walk or touch them even, Anyway.. I am sitting there talking to my Dr  and he says "Other than athsma and Obesity do you have any other diseases?"


Oh, i just wanted to roll up into a ball and cry..

Well anywho... i just wanted to write a little for today and as always.. I hope you Dont mind my scatter brain writing too much ;)



  1. I just want you to know that you are absolutely beautiful. Today may be discouraging, but tomorrow is a different day. Don't give up, you should be beyond proud of yourself!

  2. Thank you so much that means the world to me!!